I'm not sure that writing is going to help, but I'd love to be able to communicate through here versus email when I can...because this feels more personal even though it's public. Lately I dread getting on my email at all.

I'm not going to re-hash our little girl's story as of late on here because it's too much for me to handle--so I'm just going to say a few things and invite you to pray with us and then that should be enough.

Many of you know that her name is Ellie. We wanted people to be able to pray for her by name. Her name means shining light and we believe that no matter what happens that is what she will be. We have no idea what the next hours, days, or months hold...........in fact, it's been best for me to just get through the minutes sometimes.

Ellie is indeed still alive...I am counting that as a victory every single second she lives in me. We have not yet heard back from the doctors with test confirmation.....so there isn't much more I can say about that. I'm trying to remind myself that even when the doctors call--God has the final say. We are absolutely praying for healing every day......no matter the outcome or what the doctors say, we believe that as her parents we should continue asking for life and restoration.

What I can say is that this is, by far, the hardest thing we have ever been through in life, and I can honestly say that the idea of "getting through it" isn't even real to me at this point in time. The only only only only thing keeping me going is that God is continually breathing his breath into my lungs.

Whether you know us well or not--if you read this, just pray for her.
Pray that God would touch every cell of her body and restore her to 100% health. Pray for strength for Chris as he leads me and prays for me. Pray for peace and rest for me as I haven't really slept in about a week.

One thing I am sure of is that God's love is real.