Where is the balance between being a servant of God and being in earthly relationships? First corinthians says the infamous: Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Today I wasn't patient, I wasn't kind, I did insist on my own way, and I was most definitely irritable and resentful.

So then, when we resolve conflicts in our lives...doesn't this mean that nobody is really 'right' and nobody is really 'wrong'? Or does it mean that this anger and hurt feelings are not valid? I believe that they are. How am I supposed to live those words out and at the same time resolve conflicts where I feel that there IS a definite right and wrong. Why are the little things never clear. I'm not supposed to go murder someone, that's obvious. But when a situation deeply upsets me, but can be looked at completely different from another person in a not upsetting way...what do you do...

feels like a lose lose, unresolvable situation that is going to force one of the people in the relationship to suck it up and deal with it while the other barely has to compromise. maybe this isn't accurate..but it sure seems that way.

Since childhood, i've (not kidding when I say this..) always thought for a brief moment when walking through an automatic door.."man, what if this thing didn't open..I would probably just keep walking.." It's been this private little random thought that exists only in those times where I spend those few seconds walking into big stores or malls..just a silly thought that's there for a second and forgotten the next. But we put so much faith in automatic doors..just sayin'.

Think about it..it's not like you see people coming to a complete halt before continuing on their way as it gracefully slides open..we keep our pace, believing that these doors are going to serve their purpose in these technologically advanced times.

Yesterday, thanks to Target, this daydream of mine became a reality. Yes, the auto-door failed, and I ran into it.

And this is how small pointless daydreams turn into reality and then slide into day to day anxieties. Do you think my automatic door experiences from this point on will ever be the same? No, no they will not.

My assignment:

Through Immanuel Kant's work (The Good Will and Duty), explain how Kant proves that religion and Gods don't exist.

1)proves? yeah right.
2)God..s? Ain't no plural.

Just one..and He's a baller.

We(the majority of us anyway)asked if we could respectfully disagree in our paper..and he said yes, as long as we back our junk up (at least he said yes.)

A better topic:
Through Immanuel Kant's work, explain how he ARGUES against religion and God.

One little word makes such a huge difference.

Unattainable body images and the obsession to be without flaws........

I need to document this..for my memory's sake. Chris and I decided that since we're in a long distance relationship, the anticipation and anxiousness as it gets closer to when we get to see each other is like the worst kind of torture. However, once it's the day before..we just start freaking out. We came to the conclusion that the day before is like Christmas eve..except way better..like..can barely fall asleep, can't concentrate on any one task, etc. So the day of arrival is like Christmas..except since it's usually in the evening once we are reunited..it's like Christmas eve on crack because we know we get to see each other but we still have to wait practically the whole day.
So 2 days ago was the "eve." I posted on his facebook "CHRISTMAS EVE!!" in a completely silly joking way..(we know..we're retarded.) he writes back...

"Twas the night before The One, when the whole apartment was numb.
Everything was in silent anticipation for when she would come.

The ingredients for Chex Mix™ and banana [buh-nan-uh] bread were spared,
That the deliciousness of the final product could soon be shared.

Visions of being locked with those bright, keen eyes
Realities of hugging Pure Joy, confined by arm ties."

(Chris, I know you're going to read this..I hope you won't be embarrassed hahaha)
But seriously, I must say, it was just so adorable..that it needed to be documented.
I love you SO much! :)

Also, "Christmas Day" was complete bliss. We giggled and stared at each other for like 3 hours until we were able to compose ourselves and act like normal human beings.